Do we sometimes want the crazies in our lives to stay crazy so that we can continue in the role to which we’re accustomed? We pray for change, but do we really want it? Healing will turn roles upside down and alter the entire environment. Your own family and friends might not “like” the new you that healing ushers in.
It takes courage for us to not be drowned by the storms in our lives. We settle into the role of being a victim of circumstances. The question is, do we honestly want serenity and peace, or are we addicted to the drama, worry, and angst?
We cry for Jesus to save us, and then we are surprised when he calms the waters. We are shocked and question the veracity of the storm’s abatement instead of being full of gratitude for the opportunity to walk in a new way. We are used to complaining about the waves and wringing our hands in worry. We like whining to Jesus, “how dare you sleep. Get up and worry with us!” (Matthew 8:28-34)
We are not only addicted to substances but also behaviors. The victim role thrives under the blame-game world view that unsavory circumstances occur all because of something or someone else. This world view is morosely enticing and feeds the need to defend the victim persona. Even when directed by God’s mercy with another game-plan, a “victim” still clings to the comforting sameness of his/her mired character.
Jesus “rebukes the wind and the sea,” and gives us a “dead calm” (Matthew 8:26).
Are you ready to step out of the storm and into peace?
Self Love
Once when I was running,
from all that haunted me;
to the dark I was succumbing –
to what hurt unbearably.
Searching for the one thing,
that would set my sad soul free.
In time I stumbled upon it,
an inner calm and peace;
and now I am beginning,
to see who I am becoming –
and all I’ve yet to be.